Crush

BY DEFINITION:

Noun-

5. Informal
a. A usually temporary infatuation.
b. One who is the object of such an infatuation.

6. A decisive or critical moment or situation.

v.tr.-

1. To press between opposing bodies so as to break or injure.
2. To break, pound, or grind (stone or ore, for example) into small fragments or powder.
3. To put down; subdue: crushed the rebellion.
4. To overwhelm or oppress severely: spirits that had been crushed by rejection and failure.
5. To crumple or rumple: crushed the freshly ironed shirt.
6. To hug, especially with great force.
7. To press upon, shove, or crowd.
8. To extract or obtain by pressing or squeezing: crush juice from a grape.

So you can presume all the joys that come along with the infatuation of a crush will inevitably end...well, not so good...and yet it is like an addiction. It doesn't always happen, but when a certain someone peaks my interest it takes over, floods through and overwhelms the system. Perhaps I am more addicted to the unrequited part. The thrills of imagination taking life in my head better left unsaid (well not directly). It is cause for an explosion of creativity, at least for me.

in·fat·u·a·tion
n.
1. A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction. See Synonyms at love.
2. An object of extravagant, short-lived passion.

I don't know what it is, but when it comes around I do love to jump in the game. Roll around in all the made up possibilities, flourish in all the new found energies. Build up, then break down. The break down is a very important part of the whole experience. I mean CRUSH, the act of being crushed - it is the word itself. So the implications are built in. I always knew this going in, but it took a while to get use to it. To realize that it is not only there on the other end of the crush spectrum, but a one way track toward it.

Then there's the other factor when the tables have turned and I've become the object of unwanted affection. I suppose there is a fine line and mastery of executing a crush. For me I really do take it as an art, and though its fun to have a crush buddy to vicariously share in the game- the creative energy dissipates. So I do tend to keep it in art and jornals. That's my style, perhaps others fall prey to their own imagings. Thus it goes from friend to foe, where everything gets twisted and turned...and eggshells scatter everystep. Not fun, my pals, not fun at all. Who wants to edit every move and every word, it's no way to live people. So take caution in your crush. Do not ruin what could be just a regular ol' friendship. Live it up, revel in its delights, but be forewarned do not take imagination for reality. It is a fine line.